"I love you", she sighs as she rolls over.
I let out a sort of half laugh and reply, "No, you don't." She looks at me with those eyes that say "what the fuck?" I get so often.
"I'm just that guy, you know the ones… the "friend" in romantic comedies. Your real love goes off with another woman the day you tell him how you feel about him and then you get depressed an cry on someone's shoulder… that's me."
She looks confused for a moment "But last night we-"
"Indeed we did," I cut her off "that's just another part of it… but any moment he's going to come back and tell you what a horrible mistake he's made and you'll be in love forever more"
The hot water gets higher in the tub and here I sit, getting my best clothes soaked. I think for a moment about how they're going to be ruined as though it matters. It's like one of those moments you don't believe is happening only I know it is because I feel the water start to scold my legs. I start to smell my aftershave as the scent is reactivated by the heat… or the humidity… something; it reminds me of how fast this change has occurred, how I cared what I smelt like, cared about something. Now here I am. The water's rising and I'm about to go under. I'm beginning to wonder what it'll be like… death I mean, and whether my body will try an
Within hearts
And minds
Violets lie strewn
Lolling each day
In their own special way
Eyes touch for
But three seconds
Before collapsing
'Neath their weight
The gaze of gods too strong
Must have left that part
In my other coat
Which I never wore
Anyway
Watch people pass
In the rain
With their umbrellas
And their own stories each
The sound of beauty as the rain hits the floor
Something about walking through them
Just does it
Even when I get home
And there's no dial tone
Sit and let them
Glide to the floor
When you just think
About it
Death
Is
In fact
Better
Than life
Yet everyone remains
Just to stand
On the top
Of a mountain
You've just climbed
In the cold
And wet
And skanking
Right on top
It might not be much
But it's all we've got
Beautiful
Morning
Wake up
Praying that today
Is just a dream
Or some last dying memory
Sex in public toilets
And hazy memories
I'd not recognise
If they walked past
In a moment of this life
I hate
I just can't wait
To die
The weather was cold that day
In the sun
Two flowers together
In the pot they had won
For themselves
They'd been there for almost
A year and a day
Grown close to each other
They liked it that way
Entwined
He tried to prevent
But the gardener they
Tore up his mate's roots
And took her away
To a pot across the garden
Our flower he gaped
Across with despair
His lover snuggling up to
The chrysanthemum there
I lay you to the floor
I've done so times before
Yet differently
For knowing
My friend
These pages
Your end
Soul weeping
For a body
Seemingly unable
Power source unstable
And I'm stuck remembering
Blank
Blank
My last memories of you
I live across the road from a building.
BBC Radio Sheffield.
With automated security gates.
I see cars drive up.
Talk at the intercom.
Unaware the doors open
Outwards.
They always drive too close.
"I love you", she sighs as she rolls over.
I let out a sort of half laugh and reply, "No, you don't." She looks at me with those eyes that say "what the fuck?" I get so often.
"I'm just that guy, you know the ones… the "friend" in romantic comedies. Your real love goes off with another woman the day you tell him how you feel about him and then you get depressed an cry on someone's shoulder… that's me."
She looks confused for a moment "But last night we-"
"Indeed we did," I cut her off "that's just another part of it… but any moment he's going to come back and tell you what a horrible mistake he's made and you'll be in love forever more"
The hot water gets higher in the tub and here I sit, getting my best clothes soaked. I think for a moment about how they're going to be ruined as though it matters. It's like one of those moments you don't believe is happening only I know it is because I feel the water start to scold my legs. I start to smell my aftershave as the scent is reactivated by the heat… or the humidity… something; it reminds me of how fast this change has occurred, how I cared what I smelt like, cared about something. Now here I am. The water's rising and I'm about to go under. I'm beginning to wonder what it'll be like… death I mean, and whether my body will try an
Within hearts
And minds
Violets lie strewn
Lolling each day
In their own special way
Eyes touch for
But three seconds
Before collapsing
'Neath their weight
The gaze of gods too strong
Must have left that part
In my other coat
Which I never wore
Anyway
Watch people pass
In the rain
With their umbrellas
And their own stories each
The sound of beauty as the rain hits the floor
Something about walking through them
Just does it
Even when I get home
And there's no dial tone
Sit and let them
Glide to the floor
When you just think
About it
Death
Is
In fact
Better
Than life
Yet everyone remains
Just to stand
On the top
Of a mountain
You've just climbed
In the cold
And wet
And skanking
Right on top
It might not be much
But it's all we've got
Beautiful
Morning
Wake up
Praying that today
Is just a dream
Or some last dying memory
Sex in public toilets
And hazy memories
I'd not recognise
If they walked past
In a moment of this life
I hate
I just can't wait
To die
The weather was cold that day
In the sun
Two flowers together
In the pot they had won
For themselves
They'd been there for almost
A year and a day
Grown close to each other
They liked it that way
Entwined
He tried to prevent
But the gardener they
Tore up his mate's roots
And took her away
To a pot across the garden
Our flower he gaped
Across with despair
His lover snuggling up to
The chrysanthemum there
I lay you to the floor
I've done so times before
Yet differently
For knowing
My friend
These pages
Your end
Soul weeping
For a body
Seemingly unable
Power source unstable
And I'm stuck remembering
Blank
Blank
My last memories of you
I live across the road from a building.
BBC Radio Sheffield.
With automated security gates.
I see cars drive up.
Talk at the intercom.
Unaware the doors open
Outwards.
They always drive too close.
Riding In A Taxi
An Ambulance Drives By
Somebody Is Hurt
Or Is Going To Die
I Remember Thinking
That Would Never Be Me
That Would Never Hurt Me
Harmless What You Cant See
Another Time
A Taxi Drives By
A Kid Looks At Me
As If I'm Going To Die
Feel the tempered breeze of a midnight moon
Kiss your neck,
Slowly, softly, like it means it.
Taste the icy winds dance intricate temptations of moisture on your parched tongue, as dry as the evening masque.
Lurch as the night-chill
Tickles your frozen bill,
Doing that old jig we all know,
With a slight whiff of that drunk whom we said no.
Icy callouses being exposed to the nightly tundra,
Enduring pain, eating the raw skin,
Seeking alms, nothing more.
The hungry hand opens wide,
Susceptible to the cold of the cruel night.
"Feed a poor geezer tonight, mate?"
Burning cold strikes, making the loneliness only harder.
Backs of coat
Current Residence: Grimsby/Sheffield(Uni), UK Favourite genre of music: Punk Favourite style of art: That doesn't really make sense but I'm gonna say digital Operating System: Mac OS MP3 player of choice: iTunes Shell of choice: Tortoise, snails are over rated. Personal Quote: "Aww what?"
Favourite Movies
Indiana Jones Trilogy, Fight Club, I,Robot, Seraphim Falls